Heart Rules.....!!!

My recent fascination has been with reading palmistry. Well, it isn’t a full blown, in depth knowledge of palmistry, which might help or rather predict the future. Instead, it tells us about one’s qualities, or characters based on the structure of the hands, and the placement, length, depth of the lines creasing your palm.

As far as it goes, believe it or not, it has some resemblance to the reality. I don’t say that it’s perfect, but surely is quite close to reality. One thing that I noted that might be of interest, that two contradicting qualities might be present. As in, one feature might say, that the person is an extrovert, while other feature might say that the person is an introvert, basically, both features co-exist. Does that mean that the concept is bogus? I don’t think so. I think people aren’t BLACK or WHITE, they aren’t good or bad. They are shades of grey, the goodness and the badness is just comparative. It’s for people to choose which shade of grey they prefer, the lighter or the darker!

The hand mostly dwells on matter such as, life, heart, and head and how they influence each other in each other’s presence. This brings me to something. Many a times I’ve experienced a thing, which many people might have, we get confused when we have to take a decision between the head and the heart. Technically speaking, the heart just pumps blood, and brain does all the thinking part, still, there are some things that quite don’t resonate with your brain, but resonate with your heart. Some part of the brain sends some hormones, or signals to the heart, or whatever biochemistry takes place in there, it makes the heart want something else from the brain. To make it simple, however clichéd it may sound, let’s just say, most of the times it gets difficult to choose between the heart and the brain.

Some prefer to listen to the brain, and some prefer to go with the heart. But, that doesn’t distract me, everybody’s different, and they choose what they want. But, it really saddens me, when people say that those who listen to the heart are weak! They think, that they are weak, that they can’t control their feelings, heir heart. Well, I think it’s the exact opposite case. I feel, those who take decisions more with the heart are stronger, because they are ready to take the risk! They don’t mind plunging into something, even though the calculations tell them that it’s going to be difficult, even though they know that they might be hurt in the process, even though the possible outcome may not keep them happy. Whereas, the head-counterparts, I believe are weak. They calculate, they ponder, they fear the consequences, and they prefer the safer way out.

Obviously, there has to be some limit when it comes to taking decisions by the heart, when it’s concerned with moral issues, and what’s right and what’s wrong. I was just talking about those little decisions of your life! Do what your heart loves to do! Keep it happy! HEART RULES.....

HAPPY MONSOONS!

Finally, after all the wait, June came in as it should always have been, perfectly normal, with a light drizzle on the first, and a nice shower on the second day of the month!

Well, it wasn’t romantic or wonderful for me when it started raining. In fact, all the windows were closed, I’d just finished watching a movie, and was surfing channels mindlessly, and was waiting for sleep to overpower me. As I was doing that, I heard some noise. I thought my brother is up and as he’s opened the door of this room and it’s the A\C that’s making the noise. I became a bit apprehensive, as I know he would scold me for not watching anything in particular at that time of the night, (the rule is, watch a good movie or sleep). So I waited for him to say something not turning behind to see those sleepy eyes watching at me with disappointment, that’s when I heard a rumble! Then I realized that it’s something different, I look up to see his room which was closed, and I realized, that it’s the sound of the rain, not A\C and the cloud just thundered, causing the rumble.

That’s when I lost control, I just ran up, and out into the balcony, those blissful drops! That’s when some sense knocked onto me, I closed the window of my room, my brother’s, turned off the television, the lights, and all ready, to get wet in the first shower. Technically it’s the second, but as the first was just a drizzle, that can’t be considered as a ‘shower’

So, there I was out under the sky wide open, the rain pouring, wind blowing, and flashes of lightening which made the city visible for just a flash of a second! My heart screamed out, and the voice came out of my throat, I screamed, not waking anyone up! That’s what I love about showers, when you scream; it’s you who get to listen to it more than anybody else. As it was past-midnight it was an added advantage. I danced, in the rain, sang on the top of my voice, it was energizing, as if my soul had been thirsty for this, since a long time, and the thirst finally got quenched!

Then the intensity reduced, and after some time, very softly, the rain stopped. I went over to my room, sat near the window, looking out, as far as I could see! The wind was still blowing, and every blow just felt cooler! My memories took me to last year’s monsoon. Last year, in the first shower, Neha had joined me; we had such a great time! Then, came to me was the day I’d been to Worli sea-face. Everything came back, that rain; that wind, those walks, those waves, and finally, the hot-hot Domino’s Pizza while dripping wet and ruining the floor of their outlet. :D

That’s the specialty of monsoon, you can enjoy it all alone, with a friend, with a bunch of friends, family, and also with “that” someone special. I’ve always been a romantic, and the climate was perfect to think about it! As I sat there, I wondered, how wonderful it would be, to stand there at the sea-face and holding the hand, of the one you love most. Imagine, your hand being held by the one who loves you the most. Imagine he’s holding your hand, not because he knows it’ll make you feel good, but because, he fears, the rain might take you away and needs to hold onto you! Someone’s who’s holding your hand, not fearing even if he has to hold your hand for a lifetime, not thinking whether this hand, the feel of it really fits into his ‘perfect’ or not. Someone who just feels safe holding your hand, who feels as if he’s on the top of the world, not because, he’s holding the most beautiful, the most wonderful, the most wanted person. But no-one else was ever so beautiful or wonderful for him. Everyone is going to meet such a person in some point of their life. That doesn’t stop us from enjoying the rain. As I said, we can enjoy rain with anyone, everyone, or no-one.

Enjoy monsoon to the fullest, have some fun, if you don’t like getting wet, enjoy things related to it, like, hot tea, coffee, pakoras, music and everything. Let’s hope this year’s monsoon is not as dry as last year. HAPPY MONSOONS!

Memories...

I am surprised at myself! I still haven’t blogged about my memories, my college days, and all that nostalgia! While I was going through the journey, I looked back, and reminisced those moments, and controlled so that I can save all up for this, for the final one! The best one! Even in the post dated march 3rd, I’d mentioned I’ll talk all about the nostalgia after I’m done with my exams.

It’s been more than a month since my exams, and I still haven’t blogged about it. Rather, the truth is I don’t feel like it. I don’t like to think of it, and surely it isn’t just my laziness, it’s something more. Something like a fear of nostalgia! I’m not sure if such a thing exists, but I feel it.

I don’t feel like treading over the memories, I even thought of reading through some pages of my diary, but I avoided doing that. I fear the tears it would bring in my eyes. I fear the pain I’ll feel when I’ll think of those memories. I know relating those memories to pain is really disrespecting the situation. But, I’ll feel the pain, not because I had a great time then, but because, I am not having, or possibly may not have such a great time again in my life.

This is wrong! It’s like not having faith, not believing that if life has been good once, it can’t be better again. But, what if life has been best! Can something be better than the best? I don’t know!

Maybe, I was just habituated with Ruia-life, constantly surrounded by my loved ones, my dear friends. If not surrounded by them, then surrounded the atmosphere that made Ruia so special, so different! Suddenly not having that around me, makes me little uneasy, maybe! But, I need to get used it, I need to learn, it’s in my heart, it’s with me, even when not surrounding me.

In the beginning, it was very difficult to make myself understand, the three years have come to and end. That, such a time may never come in my life again. But I’ve somehow convinced myself, and as of now I want to stay away from the memories, till I become strong, strong enough to make more memories. Till the time, let them ferment. Then again, some day I’ll open this barrel, and drink in the sweet memories and enjoy every sip of it!

ESSEL-WORLD.....ESSEL-WORLD....

Essel-world…Essel-world…..This is the jingle ringing in my head whenever I think of yesterday. Yeah! I’d been to essel-world yesterday. It was an awesome day! Amusement parks are always awesome!

We were just the three of us, though more would be merrier, it was absolutely worth it. Vacation-time charges are higher than the usual; still felt we got more than what we paid for!

We had a lot of time, but the afternoon did not go that well, actually we just went ride after ride at the beginning, and I got a bit queasy, eventually, threw up! It was mostly the summer heat acting up! At first, it dampened my mood, I was embarrassed, and felt like a total loser, that I could not bear the rides. But then, I wasn’t going to let it ruin my mood for the day! I reminded myself, that I would be a loser if I don’t take it sportingly; I took rest between whenever I felt the same and continued having fun in the rides. You might have experienced, once you throw up, you feel nauseatic all the time, and another ride, would just trigger off another round of throwing up! So it did, I must’ve thrown up at least 4-5 times, and I don’t feel like a loser, so what, yes, physically I was weak! But, I don’t mind, because just accepting it, makes me feel like a winner.

But, things improved as the evening came along, the sun stopped torturing me with those strong waves, and I really started feeling fresher, and as we’d already done almost all rides once, we could decide which to repeat. Repeating is fun! Repeating rides consecutively (Read, jumping out of the ride immediately after it stops and standing in the queue again) is even more fun!

The most thrilling ride according to me was, ‘THUNDER’ and the most fun was ‘AQUA DIVE’, due to the heat, it was awesome to get drenched in that water over and over again!

The ride back from Essel-World to Gorai back in the ferry was even more memorable! Cool zephyr blowing, night sky full with stars, crescent shaped moon smiling at us, and nice mushy songs playing on the radio and my closest friends close to me! It felt as if this journey should never end! But journeys come to an end; there is always a destination which makes the journey even more intriguing! Because, we know, it’s going to come to an end, we just have to live every moment, enjoy every moment, not worrying how it would be after it comes to an end. Reminding me one thing, life, also, is pretty much similar, we just have to enjoy, without worrying, what the future would bring in!

All in all the day was awesome, wonderful, complete ‘PAISA VASOOL’, best way to spend a holiday and I’ve no regrets for the day, and the best part is that it also taught me small bitter-sweet lessons of life!

Victory over laziness.....

I’ve been experiencing this, since childhood. And maybe, those who are reading would agree with me. Exams are the time our brain is highly creative.

I’ll tell why I’m saying this. It so happened that during exams, I had come up with real creative topics for the posts on my blog, I’d come up with the idea of actually making a new blog, and lots other things I can do over the vacation, to keep myself busy. But as a matter of fact, if you see my blog the last post, it hardly shows ay signs of active posting.

Examination time, was exhausting, so, as they got finished, all I wanted to do was to take rest! But my ‘post-examination commitments’ did not let me do that for a week! After a tiring week, I decided I would take rest! I told myself, “take rest, do hell with the rest”.

But that rest was a seedling, it seeded laziness in me. That grew onto become a monstrous tree in me, making my brain heavy with its huge branches, and feet heavy with its roots. All I did was watch TV, surf mindlessly, eat, sleep, and chatter along with friends! Whenever I felt that I should use my brain a little more, I used to start reading a novel, and even an interesting one would make me sleepy within minutes. I used to give up on that too!

Then one fine day! I was remembered of my plan to be blogging super-actively in the vacation. So, in the browser I enter the address, and the page comes up, I take a look at the post, I scowl for not writing and thinking of what I should be writing next out of those many possible options for a topic. Still undecided, I open Microsoft word, look at it, sigh, look left, look right, ponder over the keyboard for a while, sigh again, and close it, knowing that the brain isn’t really in the mood for thinking.

This went on for quite a few days, but not today! Today is no ordinary day! Today I decided I would conquer and surprisingly, I did! Just happy for myself! Let’s see I could write a post, now I’ll try my best to clear up the backlog!

Till then have a great time!

Done With Exams!

It's been a week sine I've done with my exams and I finally could scrape out time to blog since my exams have finished. Well, I was busy in the "post-examination commitments".

I enjoyed those commitments though, most of them are still pending! Actually I tried to stay away from these commitments since Saturday, and they banged all the more onto me. When I avoided doing them, I only had my dear ones upset, which is hurting me even more. Now, I'm trying my best to solve it all out. The more I'm trying, the more I'm hurting, not keeping in mind, that they've matters more important than me to worry about. And, even if they try, they can't stop worrying about me, which is not necessary for them at this time, and yet they are doing it. This is hurting them even more.

I'm trying to sort out things, and sort out myself, I'm really sorry for hurting, I don't want you to resent me for any reason. Mistakes happen, and as you all know, I've a knack of repeating them. So please, Forgive me, I know not what I do!

P.S.: I was in no plan to write all this, But now I want to keep it this way! Don't wish to delete it!

WISH ME LUCK!

My last post dates to a month back. I had not blogged, because I’d so much to write and so little time! I spent some wonderful time since the last post. Good time, bad time, highs, lows, experienced all of it!

When I look back, I don’t believe I’ve experienced so much in such little time, and it’s time to bid a farewell now! Farewell to all the good memories, a farewell to Ruia. Thinking of Life in Ruia… I don’t know if it was right or wrong, but it was the best!

I can keep on talking, but I want to reserve it till I’m done with my exams! Examinations are starting from 16^th April and getting over on the 26^th of April. So, till 26^th I won’t blogging.

As of now, bye! Wish me luck! Take care!