Memories...

I am surprised at myself! I still haven’t blogged about my memories, my college days, and all that nostalgia! While I was going through the journey, I looked back, and reminisced those moments, and controlled so that I can save all up for this, for the final one! The best one! Even in the post dated march 3rd, I’d mentioned I’ll talk all about the nostalgia after I’m done with my exams.

It’s been more than a month since my exams, and I still haven’t blogged about it. Rather, the truth is I don’t feel like it. I don’t like to think of it, and surely it isn’t just my laziness, it’s something more. Something like a fear of nostalgia! I’m not sure if such a thing exists, but I feel it.

I don’t feel like treading over the memories, I even thought of reading through some pages of my diary, but I avoided doing that. I fear the tears it would bring in my eyes. I fear the pain I’ll feel when I’ll think of those memories. I know relating those memories to pain is really disrespecting the situation. But, I’ll feel the pain, not because I had a great time then, but because, I am not having, or possibly may not have such a great time again in my life.

This is wrong! It’s like not having faith, not believing that if life has been good once, it can’t be better again. But, what if life has been best! Can something be better than the best? I don’t know!

Maybe, I was just habituated with Ruia-life, constantly surrounded by my loved ones, my dear friends. If not surrounded by them, then surrounded the atmosphere that made Ruia so special, so different! Suddenly not having that around me, makes me little uneasy, maybe! But, I need to get used it, I need to learn, it’s in my heart, it’s with me, even when not surrounding me.

In the beginning, it was very difficult to make myself understand, the three years have come to and end. That, such a time may never come in my life again. But I’ve somehow convinced myself, and as of now I want to stay away from the memories, till I become strong, strong enough to make more memories. Till the time, let them ferment. Then again, some day I’ll open this barrel, and drink in the sweet memories and enjoy every sip of it!

ESSEL-WORLD.....ESSEL-WORLD....

Essel-world…Essel-world…..This is the jingle ringing in my head whenever I think of yesterday. Yeah! I’d been to essel-world yesterday. It was an awesome day! Amusement parks are always awesome!

We were just the three of us, though more would be merrier, it was absolutely worth it. Vacation-time charges are higher than the usual; still felt we got more than what we paid for!

We had a lot of time, but the afternoon did not go that well, actually we just went ride after ride at the beginning, and I got a bit queasy, eventually, threw up! It was mostly the summer heat acting up! At first, it dampened my mood, I was embarrassed, and felt like a total loser, that I could not bear the rides. But then, I wasn’t going to let it ruin my mood for the day! I reminded myself, that I would be a loser if I don’t take it sportingly; I took rest between whenever I felt the same and continued having fun in the rides. You might have experienced, once you throw up, you feel nauseatic all the time, and another ride, would just trigger off another round of throwing up! So it did, I must’ve thrown up at least 4-5 times, and I don’t feel like a loser, so what, yes, physically I was weak! But, I don’t mind, because just accepting it, makes me feel like a winner.

But, things improved as the evening came along, the sun stopped torturing me with those strong waves, and I really started feeling fresher, and as we’d already done almost all rides once, we could decide which to repeat. Repeating is fun! Repeating rides consecutively (Read, jumping out of the ride immediately after it stops and standing in the queue again) is even more fun!

The most thrilling ride according to me was, ‘THUNDER’ and the most fun was ‘AQUA DIVE’, due to the heat, it was awesome to get drenched in that water over and over again!

The ride back from Essel-World to Gorai back in the ferry was even more memorable! Cool zephyr blowing, night sky full with stars, crescent shaped moon smiling at us, and nice mushy songs playing on the radio and my closest friends close to me! It felt as if this journey should never end! But journeys come to an end; there is always a destination which makes the journey even more intriguing! Because, we know, it’s going to come to an end, we just have to live every moment, enjoy every moment, not worrying how it would be after it comes to an end. Reminding me one thing, life, also, is pretty much similar, we just have to enjoy, without worrying, what the future would bring in!

All in all the day was awesome, wonderful, complete ‘PAISA VASOOL’, best way to spend a holiday and I’ve no regrets for the day, and the best part is that it also taught me small bitter-sweet lessons of life!

Victory over laziness.....

I’ve been experiencing this, since childhood. And maybe, those who are reading would agree with me. Exams are the time our brain is highly creative.

I’ll tell why I’m saying this. It so happened that during exams, I had come up with real creative topics for the posts on my blog, I’d come up with the idea of actually making a new blog, and lots other things I can do over the vacation, to keep myself busy. But as a matter of fact, if you see my blog the last post, it hardly shows ay signs of active posting.

Examination time, was exhausting, so, as they got finished, all I wanted to do was to take rest! But my ‘post-examination commitments’ did not let me do that for a week! After a tiring week, I decided I would take rest! I told myself, “take rest, do hell with the rest”.

But that rest was a seedling, it seeded laziness in me. That grew onto become a monstrous tree in me, making my brain heavy with its huge branches, and feet heavy with its roots. All I did was watch TV, surf mindlessly, eat, sleep, and chatter along with friends! Whenever I felt that I should use my brain a little more, I used to start reading a novel, and even an interesting one would make me sleepy within minutes. I used to give up on that too!

Then one fine day! I was remembered of my plan to be blogging super-actively in the vacation. So, in the browser I enter the address, and the page comes up, I take a look at the post, I scowl for not writing and thinking of what I should be writing next out of those many possible options for a topic. Still undecided, I open Microsoft word, look at it, sigh, look left, look right, ponder over the keyboard for a while, sigh again, and close it, knowing that the brain isn’t really in the mood for thinking.

This went on for quite a few days, but not today! Today is no ordinary day! Today I decided I would conquer and surprisingly, I did! Just happy for myself! Let’s see I could write a post, now I’ll try my best to clear up the backlog!

Till then have a great time!

Done With Exams!

It's been a week sine I've done with my exams and I finally could scrape out time to blog since my exams have finished. Well, I was busy in the "post-examination commitments".

I enjoyed those commitments though, most of them are still pending! Actually I tried to stay away from these commitments since Saturday, and they banged all the more onto me. When I avoided doing them, I only had my dear ones upset, which is hurting me even more. Now, I'm trying my best to solve it all out. The more I'm trying, the more I'm hurting, not keeping in mind, that they've matters more important than me to worry about. And, even if they try, they can't stop worrying about me, which is not necessary for them at this time, and yet they are doing it. This is hurting them even more.

I'm trying to sort out things, and sort out myself, I'm really sorry for hurting, I don't want you to resent me for any reason. Mistakes happen, and as you all know, I've a knack of repeating them. So please, Forgive me, I know not what I do!

P.S.: I was in no plan to write all this, But now I want to keep it this way! Don't wish to delete it!