WHY DID I???!!!

I’m losing them out

Those who were special,

Those, whom I trusted,

Those whom I believed in,

Those, whom I loved,

Those whom I cared for,

And,

All those who cared for me once.

Maybe they just pretended to care.

Cuz, now, they’ve left me,

Just like leaving a blind man to find his way out.

I’ve gone numb, I can’t feel.

How will I find the door?

I can’t listen to the voices,

My pain has made me deaf.

I fear telling them how I feel.

I fear,

Losing them even more.

I fear they won’t even talk to me again.

I always feared making friends,

Feared opening up among them,

All these just because,

I feared, losing them.

The nightmare is turning into reality.

What should I do?,

I’ve committed the mistake again.

My heart is wounded,

My tears are bleeding out.

I need someone to heal them…

No,

Not someone this time,

I don’t want all this again!

I’ll deal with it myself…

I don’t wish to trust anyone…

Anyone again!