Where can I find my ......Inspiration!!!

Inspiration,

Here, there, everywhere...

I've looked,

But it's nowhere!!

I'm looking within,

staring at the mirror...

But,

The spark has lost somewhere!!

I wish,

I could get it back...

Feel the rush,

When I'm on track!!

That,

Stupendous flow of words...

Emptying,

My heart in one go!!!

I wish,

I could write a cute prose...

Or,

A long poetry expressing my woes!! ;)

But,

All of this has lost somewhere..

Not really knowing,

If I got anything to share!!

Adios Pune!!!~~ The journey ends here!!!!

               The journey of M.Sc. has finally come to an end! All this time I just wanted to get over with it! But now all I feel in my heart is a void, vacuum, emptiness. It just doesn’t want to accept that within a week all that would be left of me and pune would be just some memories scribbled on pages, frozen in pictures and few inscribed in my mind! Suddenly, I realize this city, this life has grown on me, and it is not going to be easy to just detach myself from it!

                The best way to describe my life here would be by relating it to a ‘journey through a tunnel’ and outside this tunnel was my life in Mumbai! Just like every journey I was very excited to have this ‘novel’ experience.  I started off, walking a few steps, I got scared! The end was nowhere in sight, it all seemed so bleaky and dark! I was worried, I wanted to give up and run away! And when I was almost about to make a run, a light just glowed and encouraged me to just have faith and walk! With the guidance of that light, I walked!! Slowly more lights glowed and the journey was not all that bad! Some stayed glowing and warm till the very end, some were there for some days, and some just flickered a bit! Even though they weren’t always glowing, I knew they are around and in case of extreme darkness they would just light up :) as the 2 years went by more and more such lights got added, making this journey memorable! (Here ‘the lights’ refer to all the wonderful ‘friends’ I met). And thank you all for the light and warmth you’ve given me!

                Now I’ve reached the end of the journey! I stand here, at the edge! The world outside seems dark and directionless all I want to do is hold onto this familiar tunnel of mine, don’t want to let go off it! Buy reality will make me, and the journey further would begin on a new hope!

                Whatever the future holds, I’m really happy for gaining this experience, these people and this knowledge! At times i regret having taken this decision in the first place, but nothing beats all that I’ve gained by choosing this journey! I’m thankful to the city, and especially my friends here, will miss you guys the most! I hope you miss me and my drama too!! Adios!!

-_- zzzz -_-

Stifling a yawn,

I wipe off my eyes!!!

Heavy with drowsiness,

I look at the time!!!

PARALYSED,,,

Are the hands of the watch,

It shows 5 mins,

But I’m sure an hour has passed!!!

I look around,

I look everywhere,,

Trying to remember,

What exactly is this place!!!

I wake up,

I realize.

It’s just another lecture…

Freezing up time!!

Fly high!!!

I’m a bird,

Up in the sky,

Flapping my wings hard,

To go high!!!

Against the wind I course,

I feel free…

I fly higher,

Just to be with me!!!

Swooping down on the sea,

I let the breeze detoxify me!!
Splashing waves….

Wash me off my negativities!

Up I go again,

Feeling new!!

Knowing that life,

Would now have the groove!!

Upon a hilltop I safely land,

And start off with a new dance!!!

MYLO XYLOTO \m/

Reading reviews about Mylo Xyloto I was really worried if I've taken a right decision by booking a pre-order release of the same! But then I thought, reviews are not meant for true fans! And now I can proudly say, I'm a fan too! Well, I loved every song, and I feel 14 songs aren't just enough, I WANT MORE!!!!!! I can't really choose a favourite among all the songs! I listened over and over again (enjoying every minute of it ;)) still can’t really place my finger on one particular song! I guess you should yourself listen to each and decide for yourself, and maybe help me too to pick one! :D

FLY AWAY!!!!

Life is so hapenning,

But nothing new…

I’m so busy,

Yet nothing to do!!!

I’m in a crowd,

Yet I feel so left out…

I seem calm,

But all I want to do is shout!!!

I’m in a new place,

But I’m sick of the very same…

I walk here everyday just because I can’t fly away!!!

~~~HAPPY NEW YEAR~~~

Finally, I take the the effort, to blog! After almost 2 months comes my post! Well, what took me so long, as usual, LAZINESS, or to put it poetically...

I don't feel inspired!!!

But this excuse won't work this time, whether I feel inspired or not, I decided I won't forget the year 2010 and will surely give it a farewell, a farewell it deserves, as I stand here beyond all odds, 'alive and kicking'!

Talking about the year, I can say it was one of the longest years of my life! January 2010 in Ruia seems to me like ages ago! My posts, Esselworld, monsoons seem like I've been talking about something that happened years ago! But no, it all happened in the happening year, 2010! It mus be well experienced by most and many, that when you are enjoying, time flies by, and when you are not or when you are having a bad time, seconds seem like hours!

Maybe that was what made me feel so. Of course, the year wasn't really a bed of roses for me! If I compare it to a roller-coaster, as I usually do, it was full of ups and downs, obviously normal for it, I mean, that is how they are, sometimes up, and unexpectedly, zoom you come down, that freefall, that feeling of helplessness! I've been experiencing this for many years now, (like everyone else living), so I don't have any issues about that feeling of helplesness, I now sort of know how to deal with it. But, I was thinking of the feeling I had when I was on the roller-coaster, in 2009 I was screaming with joy and fear, but this year, maybe I was nauseatic, because, my insides didn't quite agree with it's twists and turns, maybe! But anyways, however it was, good or bad. As usual I hope and pray to God, even though everything that is hapenning may not be good, but surely it is Happening for the best reasons!

Talking about the year, I cannnot forget the people who were a part of my life in this year, surely many new, plus my family, friends, and all of those who really made a difference, made me smile, make me think sensibly, made me ward off those demons brooding in my mind, those who adviced, helped, gave me gifts, lifts and treats! Basically all those who made me smile atleast for a millisecond in these 365 days. Thanks for everything, maybe I'll never show how thankful I am, But, trust me I am a lot more than I can ever believe I can be!

Finally, I thank the year, because in spite of all the fights, tears, illnesses and accidents I stand here 'alive and kicking' wishing everyone A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!