Vonderful...vacations!

Every morning I wake up, 

I fear getting out of bed,

 and living another day, 

I fear it will fade,

 the memories of the last few days.

 

This can explain why I wake up late every morning. But, no it is also true that this feeling actually haunts me every morning. Every morning, when the morning sunshine shines on my eyes through the window I imagine myself sleeping in some dormitrory or in a hotel room with friends around and imagine one of them might wake me up now and tell me to get ready. But no, no-one comes I open my eyes, there I am laying on my bed, and refusing to get out of it. Because living another day would mean, living new memories, which means burying those memories deeper which this heart doesn't wish to do. But this is the way of life.

If my life was a movie, this would be the part of it, which I would love to rewind and watch right now.  Oh! I forgot to mention what part of my life I am talking about. Well, it was the most interesting part of my vacation, a few days before 1st may to a few days after 28th may, this complete patch being the most longest part of my vacation, and since this went good, this would be my first vacation after joining degree college that I really am going to miss. 

A few days before 1st may I roamed around in Bombay, enjoyed every moment of that. Then from 1st to 11th may I'd been to my native place malwan, I was with my family, and my dear friend Shraddha had joined in, and I am really thankful to her, if it wasn't her, my visit wouldn't have been as interesting, as it was now. Sitting the boat every evening, those beaches, playing with the waves, playing cards, UNO, and of course that "Bramhan-jevan" everything, I miss it a lot. I reached home on 11th may at night, and the next night I left again for Nagpur. 

From 12th may to 28th may I was with friends we attended a camp and also did some site-seeing. It was one of the most memorable trip ever. I enjoyed a lot. I made new friends, a lot more new friends. Never thought I would be having such a wonderful vacation. 15 days flew away just like that. Every day has millions of memories to be treasured. The fun i had! Oh! don't ask! Words and time both will fall short to explain it. We've tried to capture most of it in a camera! But others are in my mind, and as said previously now I've to enclose them and bury it deeply in my mind.

 After 28th meeting my family, my best friends was again such a wonderful experience. So, as i said a few days before 1st may to some days after 28th may, were one of the best times of my life. And i really fear burying them deep. But now I think, just like wine, they'll taste better with time :)

When You Don't Have An Answer...

Questions....

Easy, Difficult, Obvious, Stupid.

But, 

Questions will be Questions.

Questions are very Good When you know the answer, they are interesting when you think over it and you come to an answer, questions are stupid when you never think this could possibly be an answer. But questions are full of quest, when you can never come to an answer.  How much ever you think about them, look around for an answer, you hardly come to one. There's no book that holds all these answers, but books having the writers their own experiences over such answers. But most of the time, many experiences just confuses us even more. 

Such are the questions of life. Life has been putting such questions on us, all the time. How hard we try to find an answer, we just can't. These questions are not right or wrong, these are just answers, respective to the situations. The answers to these questions come on their own, they dawn upon us suddenly, at just the right time. It's alright if we don't worry about them, but still we do. Life teaches us most of the time,through these questions. The questions are better left unanswered. It's like when you are thinkin hard over a name you can't recollect, but you still can't, and when you stop thinking about it, bang there comes the answer to your mind, similiarly these answers come to us, when we least expect it, but at the right time. But this curious human mind, just loves to linger over it, think over it, and try to get an answer to it. To the questions of life.

Nehru Science Centre..after ages!!!

When God makes you wait he gives you the Best!

I say this because our visit to the Nehru Science Centre was surely one of the best. We’d been to this place on Friday, before which the plan had flopped thrice.

                   Many people made fun of me after getting to know that the plan had flopped. But I laughed at them after coming on the Friday evening, because all those who laughed at me, either had not been to place for a long time, or have never visited it even once. If you fall in either of the category, I think you should really not mind giving a visit once.

                  But most of the times the Science Centre is confused for Planetorium and vice versa. The same mistake we made! We took a bus from Byculla station got down at the last stop, The Planetorium. We realized the mistake after we talked to a good sandwich-wala. But since we had a plan of visiting both anyways, we checked for the shows. But to our misfortune, to watch a show in English we would have to wait for some 2 hours. So we decided to go to the science centre instead. We asked the watchman for the directions, who was a jolly good fellow, and gave in the details quite perfectly. We took a cab and finally reached the desired place.

            We bought tickets for the places we were interested in looking at, and dashed in. First there were some models of the first steam engine, first electric train, first tram, etc. Further we moved out in the actual place of fun, inside The Science Centre! The only thing I did not like was, we were not allowed to take bottles inside, and in this heat, and I need it all the time.

            Anyways, we went inside, the ground floor is based on some principles of energy, kinetics and such. We had interesting time there. Just a bit further was the section related to evolution of life, well which did not interest me much.

            Then on the first floor was a kid’s section. Along with the kids section was attached the section of senses. That was really interesting. Many were informative with quizzes, but there was also a team quiz sort of a thing, which was also interesting as well as informative. The kid’s section has a 3-D show, it’s for 15 minutes only, and for 20/-. It was a complete Value for Money, really amazed me! We were eaten up by sharks, thrown apples at us by monkeys. It was really great!

            Then the second floor was full of cool stuff related to sound. The third floor had great informative things related to light. Whereas the fourth floor was dedicated to computers and the IT world, wonderful attempt was made to make it more interactive, but did not strike much for me.

            Finally completely exhausted we left the place picked up our bottles and drank water after a very long time. It gave me the same feeling which I felt after visiting the place. It was like quenching of thirst after a very long time. 

:) RIDING HAPPINESS :)

Back with a bang!!! Not sure about the bang thing, but I’m surely back with a difference. Finally I’m done with my examinations, which were really mentally exhausting. Now that I’ve got some time to myself want to utilize it to the best. I want to utilize my vacation at the best! HA! Those are just damn words. I want to do nothing, I want to watch movies, I want to sleep till late afternoons, and I want to do nothing! I enjoy doing nothing, but I know I’ll be bored enough! Or I might even not get the time to do all of that.

            Finally my exams have ended! I know you read it once, but I was just testing! Yeah! I’m getting a combination of feelings, just trying to sort it all out. The first feeling I get is, of course, it’s like someone took the load off my shoulders, but there’s something more to it, heart’s filling with Apprehension. The apprehension about another year-of course academic, coming to an end! Oh My God! Still unable or unwilling to swallow the bitter reality, but no other option left!

                  GULP!!!   

            Yeah another year came to and end, this reminds of the end of the previous year, as well as the beginning of this very year. I remember the statement, “I hope I’ve an equal or a more wonderful second year.” I think my wishes were accepted. Agreed that it wasn’t wonderful the way I’d expected it to be, but I loved it the way it was. You must be wondering, what about those sad, pessimistic poems I wrote in my previous posts, well that was just a passing moment, and it passed, and I’m happy that such a time came in my life, it came for the best for sure, after all

            EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A GOOD REASON!

            As I said life wasn’t going the way I’d expected, so I was a bit phobic to the change, but then I realized, it was for the best! I accepted the change! And I’m happy, happily riding along the new way!

            And on this way, I’ve people who matter to me the most! I don’t even need to name them, reading this they’ll come to know; they have a place somewhere here.

            Because they are RIDING HAPPINESS along with me!

HAVE YOU ALL FORGOTTEN...OR YOU NEVER REALLY CARED!!

Have you forgotten?

Or you never really cared..

Listening to you,

Never interested me.

Still I listened..

I tried..

I adjusted..

Adjusted..to keep it going.

Now I realize,

You needed me then,

And not anymore.

Whenever you needed me,

I tried my best to be there..

I tried..

I adjusted..

Adjusted….to keep it going.

Now I realize,

You’re too selfish,

You’ll never do the same for me,

You won’t sacrifice even a bit for me.

You can’t see someone happy,

You can’t bear else’s happiness.

I ignored..

I tried..

I adjusted..

Adjusted…to keep it going.

Now I realize,

How long could I ignore it!

I can’t bear it anymore.

I loved you the way you were,

Loved your simple sweetness..

But you wanted to be someone else…

I corrected..

I tried..

I adjusted..

Adjusted.. to keep it goin.

Now I realize,

I should’ve never corrected you,

You wouldn’t have gone as far as you have!

Have you all forgotten?

Or you never really cared!

The time we spent together,

The moments that we shared.

The comments that we made..

The way you troubled me.

That nuclear reactor..

That high micro trek!

Those 10 kahaniya,

That 15/- tip.

That structure test studies,

That first time Sherry’s

That Bhool Bhulaiaya!,

That Chak De, India!

That pro-nite,

Rather, Utsav’e every nite.

That saree day,

And the boring traditional day!

That parnavi’s birthday,

And Omkar’s bad day.

That Juhu beach,

N that ITC.

That microscope diagram,

And the reason Rina gave.

Those few good looking guys,

And our search for them.

That Gala’s cold coffee,

That CCD’s, mocha’s hot coffee.

That Omkar acting that Parnavi reacting.

That bunking and those proxies,

And many more such jhols we did.

That hunt for ribbons and balloons pastry,

That almost everyday monginis pastry.

That treasure hunt,

That cadbury’s fun!

Don’t you miss those days?

We miss them everyday.

Have you all forgotten?

Or you never really cared?

WHY DID I???!!!

I’m losing them out

Those who were special,

Those, whom I trusted,

Those whom I believed in,

Those, whom I loved,

Those whom I cared for,

And,

All those who cared for me once.

Maybe they just pretended to care.

Cuz, now, they’ve left me,

Just like leaving a blind man to find his way out.

I’ve gone numb, I can’t feel.

How will I find the door?

I can’t listen to the voices,

My pain has made me deaf.

I fear telling them how I feel.

I fear,

Losing them even more.

I fear they won’t even talk to me again.

I always feared making friends,

Feared opening up among them,

All these just because,

I feared, losing them.

The nightmare is turning into reality.

What should I do?,

I’ve committed the mistake again.

My heart is wounded,

My tears are bleeding out.

I need someone to heal them…

No,

Not someone this time,

I don’t want all this again!

I’ll deal with it myself…

I don’t wish to trust anyone…

Anyone again!